Sunday, October 29, 2017

That BDSM Profile Test

Hi there! How is everyone?

I'm doing better, you guys... it's a struggle, but I'm fighting my way back. I've realized some things about myself recently. Not anything I'm quite ready to get into here yet, but I will. I'm still absorbing some things, figuring some things out.

But I'm feeling much better.
This morning, I was spending some time with a new friend of mine. We're in that place where we're discussing our likes/dislikes, etc., and he mentioned that fetish test people have all over their profiles.

I've taken it before, but not recently. The results change every time, depending on where I am in my life and what I'm into at the moment, but for right now, this seems to be what my profile looks like:

100% Switch
100% Rope bunny
99% Exhibitionist
98% Voyeur
83% Masochist
74% Vanilla
70% Submissive
58% Experimentalist
56% Rigger
53% Non-monogamist
48% Primal (Prey)
42% Daddy/Mommy
41% Brat
37% Slave
35% Dominant
30% Sadist
8% Primal (Hunter)
3% Pet
1% Master/Mistress
1% Ageplayer
0% Degradee
0% Boy/Girl
0% Degrader
0% Owner
Let me say first off, I disagree with some of these results and take great offense at the 1% age play most especially. Not sure how I answered any of the questions for them to come up with that 1%... I am completely opposed to age play. It makes me ill.

And then there's that 42% Mommy thing. What. the. fuck? That should be a big 0% as well. And, oh my christ, 41% brat? Nooooooo... I try very hard not to be a brat. It's not sexy, mature or attractive.
I think what this list/test basically tells me is that I'm prone to go with the mood, or the flow, of what is happening around me. I'm not any one thing. I'm not a domme, or a submissive, and I'm sure as hell not vanilla. But sometimes I'm absolutely a domme, and a submissive, and completely vanilla.
I'm a sensual woman... and I feel off my partner's desires. It brings me pleasure. I don't need a label. I'm probably more submissive than anything else, but... doesn't define me.

Like Ani diFranco says, I am 32 flavors and then some.
I am, apparently, more vanilla than I thought I'd be... though I guess that's changed with the times, too. I've no wish to be collared and submit to anyone right now. I can't give that much of myself to anyone right now.

The last time was too big of a cluster fuck.
But I will say this... I like my new friend. A lot.

He's funny and cute. And we mostly just talk and that's a nice change. And that's all I have to say about him right now.
I'll do another post soon and let you all know what's going on in my real life and how I'm trying to kick this particularly bad bout of depression. I have to admit, this has been the worst it's ever been for me, and though I understand why, I'm still struggling with making it stop.

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