Thursday, October 20, 2016

Yeah, so...

I had another post written to go here, but I deleted it. I just needed to write it for myself but it wasn't really anything that needed to be shared with the world.

Anyway, yeah, I'm single again.
 C'est la vie, right?

Not gonna beat myself up about it, not this time.
I'm just gonna hang out by myself for a while, I think. Not really ready to get back up on the horse just quite yet. I'll be keeping myself content playing adult Barbie with my avatar and taking photos. Maybe revisit some blog drafts that I never finished. Who knows?
That's kind of what happens when you have a breakup in SL, isn't it? That sort of aimless period just wandering around wondering what comes next.

I know I don't have the energy to really talk to anyone, and I certainly don't have the energy, or desire, to fuck anyone. My libido is in the shitter. I'm sure that won't last, though. It never lasts.
I know this sounds all sorts of melancholy and stuff, but I'm really not. I'm just feeling sort of meh about Second Life right now.

I was in a relationship that didn't work for me and walked away. It's sad, yes, but I'm not sad. It was what was best for me, what was healthy for me.
I didn't really like the person I was becoming. I like who I was before, who I am. I think I'm pretty fabulous. It won't be long before I'm ready to share all that wonderfulness with someone again.

But not today, and probably not tomorrow.
Maybe I'll go shopping. Or find a new hobby. Maybe I'll just be me for a while. 

And that's enough.

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